To Every Yogi Who Has Known That Yoga Found You When You Needed It Most…

 In Honor of My Yoga Teacher and my Yogi Sisters and Soul Sisters walking this earth alongside me on our Yoga Journey

January 2013…
When I walked into that room… the night I attended my first yoga teacher training class…. having expectation… set opinions about who I was and “where I belonged”…. Soul Tattered… Broken Hearted… Anxiety-Ridden… Depressed… Having buried my father and at that time two brothers I loved very very dearly…. a grieving mother, now widowed…who had her own pieces to pick up while also picking up mine…I had no idea how I would make it… or if I even belonged… but something way down deep in the depths of my heart and soul held my feet to the earth… firmly planted… knowing I just needed to be there…

I often called myself an “emotional gypsy”. I ran from career interest… to career interest… to hobby…. to distraction… and back again… trying so desperately to find that spark that would set me alive again….
I believe most of me knew the universe was telling me to be in Yoga Teacher Training. I hoped with all my heart that it was where I was meant to be… but a small part of me thought, with a heavy heart, that it might just be another thing that I ran to…. and most likely would run from when it wasn’t holding my attention away from my pain anymore…

The joke was on me…because I didn’t realize the truth about yoga. I didn’t realize its true intention. I didn’t know that yoga wasn’t just not falling in Tree Pose and Warrior II. Yoga taught me how to feel… and Yoga taught me how to stay in the moment when the feeling became enough to make me run… Yoga saved my life. Yoga saved my soul.

As we moved through teacher training our Yoga Teacher taught us about acceptance… about love… she gave us a place where we were allowed to cry and feel what we were feeling without needing to explain it. She gave us a place where we were able to ‘simply be’ without explanation. It was liberating and a home for all of us that made us feel whole and able open up and speak our truth…
I learned so much about my sisters in yoga teacher training. I learned about their lives. What made them tick. Their struggles… I saw one thing that…actually beautifully…. made me realize we were all broken in some way. We were all in that studio space… cozy wooden floor… breathing together… moving together… huddled together… picking up each other’s pieces… becoming strong enough to pick up our own…. feeling and existing without need for explanation… it was then that I took a deep breath and felt a space where I’ve honestly never encountered again anywhere else… A place where I was able to be exactly me. Where I didn’t need to fit in any boxes.. where I wasn’t asked to make sense to anyone but myself… Where I got to just be a raw bundle of exploding emotions waiting to be felt and let go of…

It was then when it started to occur to me… and has resonated with me more and more as I move through my journey of Yoga…. Yoga attracts the broken, tattered souls who have realized they have a home within it. Those who have come for the true meaning of Yoga… those who yoga has found who are meant to belong in its space… have been experienced life in such a way that they need to explore and find the space to ‘simply be’ and be a soul within a body. A spirit. An experience not of the mind or of anxiety or of depression or of loss… but simply the core truth of who they are. They become so grateful that yoga has given them the space to be who they are that they begin to open and feel and breathe… and they begin to exist and be who they truly are.

We have all come to this practice of yoga with a story…. with a purpose.. and with a oneness. We are all here for the same reason. To ‘simply be’ who we are.

Walk into any studio… throw your mat down by any yogi… ask them about their story… ask them how they found yoga…. or perhaps… how yoga found them. I guarantee… they will have a beautiful story that will touch your soul and that may even connect to your own.

10 Replies to “To Every Yogi Who Has Known That Yoga Found You When You Needed It Most…”

  1. Beautiful!! As someone that yoga found, I applaud you for including the honor and grateful spirit that comes as you grow with it.

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