Mental Health Is No Joke. Breathe. Begin Again.

I feel like perhaps it’s an appropriate day (voting day) for this discussion…. although it happened purely out of coincidence that I would feel moved to share this today.
I think…. though we have come so very far…. maybe we have not completely busted the lid of mental health in our little corner of the world… so here I go…

Many of you know I have many credentials in the self-care and alternative health field… “Experienced Registered Yoga Teacher, 200 Hours”, “Reiki Master Teacher” “Fitness Walking Certified”… to name a few…
…however… none of the credentials or titles come with a key to the “promised land” of health and wellness… I know what I should do…. but I’m not perfect… I know meditation helps me control my anxiety… but I still worry when my loved ones get in their car in the morning… I know self-care and yoga helps me control my relationship with food… but it does not erase the fact that I have an eating disorder… I know cultivating peace, calming and healing in my personal life helps me to start my day and breathe a little more and choose love a little more… and choose reaction a little less… but it doesn’t mean my depression disappears….So many of us you see every day with bouncing energy and big smiles are fighting a battle to get up, dress up, let go and breathe every morning.

My life is amazing. I have a devoted, loving, caring husband… a big family that stands by my side every step of the way (on both mine and my husband’s side) and incredible friends and students that have had my back every step of the way.
I would be completely lying and untrue to my spirit and self if I tried to admit to you that I did not struggle through the transition of losing my yoga studio home, packing up all of the memories we made there, moving to a new space and doing all of the business work it takes to let my students know I’m in a new location.
I’d love to say I powered through… got in the cardio… didn’t eat the sugar and did it all perfectly… but that’s not what happened.
I cried… I leaned on my husband, family, and friends… I ate sugar… I ignored my yoga mat… I didn’t do the cardio. I was completely imperfect… and 100% human. I strive to one day make it through a life transition without falling off the health journey wagon… This time it didn’t happen.
I didn’t share this… I didn’t share anything for a while through this because I was ashamed that I let up. I was angry at myself… I felt weak… I felt like I was failing… I felt like I had done myself and those I’m sharing my story with a disservice…
Today it occurred to me as I made the journey to my counselor’s office (yes… I go to counseling regularly…even on the good days!…. mental health is important!) that I haven’t failed… I’ve done the exact opposite… I’m human. Failing means quitting. I’m far from quitting… I’ve fallen… I’ve rested and healed… but I’m here… showing up… accepting…. ready to move forward.

I’m sharing this story not only for me… but because we need to wake up and realize there are a whole bunch of us in this world trying to do our best, being told by society to “suck it up” not realizing that mental health is no joke!
Let’s start with self-love. Let’s start by showing up. Whispering to ourselves I’ve got this… I’m here… I showed up… I’m worth it.

Loves, it’s time to turn the scales… it’s time to reach out. Hold each other up… choose love. Be gentle. Be human. Ask for help. Accept. Be. Breathe.

Mental Health Is No Joke. We have not failed. We have simply come into awareness.
Next time you feel that “suck it up… get over it” voice in your head coming on… let’s try replacing it with “I’m choosing love… I’m human… I’m allowed to feel what I’m Feeling… I’m ready to get up and begin again”.
So here I am.
Showing Up.
Beginning Again.
Breathe. Be. Begin Again.
We are all here together on this earth for a reason. Hold each other up. Be Human. Cheer for each other.
Know that next time you come across that awkward quiet girl that you wonder why she isn’t being social… remember that she may be fighting to accept. She may be working on just getting through the moment.
I Know. Because I’m Her.
Mental Health Is No Joke. Anxiety Strikes At A Moments Notice… and it doesn’t play favorites. We’re all human. No one is immune.
Choose Love. Do Yoga.

Love Donation Meditation Course

Here at Changing Leaves, we believe everyone deserves the right to continue their Yoga Practice. The way we see it, the path to self-love, self-discovery, and self-growth is a right. Not a privilege. Our Dream is to see every Yoga Student, Teacher and Individual strengthen their practice, educate themselves and discover the inner-peace and bliss that lies right within themselves. The wealth of happiness and contentment that lies within all of us is accessible with the right tools. Help us make this dream a reality.

Donate whatever you feel you are able and I will gift our very first online meditation course to you. It will give you lifetime access and I will be uploading new meditations weekly! Give what you can afford, from $1 up to $50. The Course is Valued at $55. If you can give more, please do, but whatever you can truly afford is perfect. Know that your Love Donation goes back into our studio- and to you!

About Our Online Meditation Course

People United… Making the World Peaceful…One Breath At a Time…
All you have to do is show up each day with an open mind and a pure heart willing to learn, and a sincere desire to live a clear-minded, healthy, peaceful life. Discover how learning to clear the mind makes way for more abundance in every of your life. This will be a private group full of love and acceptance. Leave your worries and expectations at the door. Here, you will find a safe and warm place to grow and share.

What Is Meditation?

Meditation, as stated by Sankya philosophy, is “the liberation of the mind from all distracting thoughts, emotions, and desires”.
Simply put, Meditation is allowing one’s self to let go of all thought, worry, and distraction by means of bringing their attention to the present moment. This is obtained by finding an anchor which is directly connected to the present- the body. We are able to be directly connected to our body (and therefore connected to the present moment) by means of learning to become connected to the breath.

The Benefits of Meditation:

Decrease stress and anxiety
Helps Ease Depression
Enjoy a peaceful state of mind
Supports a healthy life overall
Strengthens your immune system
Increase motivation
Improve concentration and focus
Alleviates Insomnia, headaches and much more…

Develop a Daily Meditation Practice- Learn to Breathe Easier, Relax the Body, as well as, Quiet & Calm the Mind.

Being so deeply connected to the pursuit of self-truth and discovering who my ‘self’ truly is… I began to realize the real answer to who I am and why I do what I do, think what I think, Feel How I feel….was deeply rooted in the connection my true self-made with my emotions, thoughts, distractions, and desires. When I learned how to separate the two… I began to break free of the hold that my anxiety and my emotions had over me!
 I am giving this course to everyone as my way of giving back to this beautiful practice of Yoga & Meditation. I want everyone to experience the freedom and peace that meditation can provide. Our little studio is working hard to reach every student and provide yoga to everyone.
  • Gain an Understanding of what Meditation is.
  • Receive a New WEEKLY Guided Meditation Session to help you discover and strengthen your Meditation Practice!
  • Develop a Daily Home Meditation Practice
  • Learn Breath and Body Techniques to Calm The Body Mind and Soul
  • Learn the Ability to Clear the Mind
  • Learn How to Handle and Control Your Thoughts and Distractions and How To Let Go of Them With Meditation

To Get Started: Contact Meg Marie for Details on Enrolling!  Email


Your Meditation Practice: Thinking Outside The Box

The true definition of meditation is “the liberation of the mind from all distracting thoughts, emotions, and desires”.  Simply put, Meditation is allowing one’s self to let go of all thought, worry, and distraction by means of bringing their attention to the present moment.

Traditionally taught,  the practice of meditation is obtained by finding an anchor which is directly connected to the present- the body. We are able to be directly connected to our body (and therefore connected to the present moment) by means of learning to become connected to the breath.

What would happen, though, if we broke down the true idea of meditation and begun to think outside the box when it comes to what meditation really is and how we can incorporate a bit of meditation into every moment (or many moments) throughout our day?

Meditation is simply the act of being completely and fully immersed in the present moment. In what ways can we become totally and completely connected to the moment?

Cold Water Meditation

Sit or stand quietly and close your eyes. Take a sip of cold water. Feel the cold glass in your hand… how does it feel? How does the water feel as you take a sip? Notice the cold sensation on your tongue and in your mouth.

As you begin to swallow the water notice the way it feels on the back of your throat. Can you stay with the sensation and feel the cold water going all the way down the throat and into the stomach? At what point does the sensation dissolve? Throughout this experience, you were completely connected and in the present moment!

Shower Meditation

This meditation can begin with the act of turning on your water and running your hand through the water to check its temperature. How does the water feel against your fingertips? How does the water pressure feel as you run your hand over the water? What is the temperature of the water? How does the water feel? Bring your awareness there.

As you enter the shower… bring your total awareness to the moment as the water surrounds you. What sensations do you feel as the water touches your skin? Notice the very space where the crown of the head becomes covered in the water. How does that sensation of going from dry hair to wet hair feel? Notice the way your body sensations change at the temperature of the warm water. Here, you have been submerged into the moment!

Sitting Meditation

As you sit either on your yoga mat or in a chair… notice the space where the earth meets the base of your spine. Feel supported. Notice the way the body responds to being supported by the earth. Notice the way the spine can grow tall and long as the base of the spine presses into the earth.
Place your hands on the mat or on the sides of your chair… feel the way the surface feels against your fingers. Notice the material. Become aware of how the sensations in your body begin to change as you settle deeper into this experience. You have become connected now to the moment and have experienced total connection!

Think outside the box. What other ways throughout your day can you experience meditation by being submerged into the moment?


26 Things I’d Tell Myself 10 Years Ago (…and lets be honest… probably yesterday)…If I Could Send Myself A Letter

I’ve spent a lot of time reflecting back and marveling at how much I’ve grown just in the last few years…. I have extreme deep love for the girl I once was… The one who fought with everything she had so that I could be the person I am today… So I decided to write her a letter….

  1. Enjoy the little things.
  2. Don’t lose faith. Loss happens but life is still good.
  3. Listen to your dads silly jokes. He won’t be around forever…
  4. Figure out what you want to do with your life before you rack up probably literally a million dollars student loans….
  5. Surely, we are all charmed by your quick Wittiness… but perhaps you could dial it back a few hundred notches…. not everyone enjoys that much sarcasm…
  6. Don’t hold grudges. They manifest in the body and give you physical aches and pains!
  7. Don’t judge people. You don’t know them or their journey.
  8. Don’t become offended so easily.
  9. Stop taking random college classes that don’t connect to your major…. seriously… you thought it would be cool to try to learn to draw in the middle of your degree!?
  10. You’re not “gross” or “unlovable” you’ll have an amazing fiancé when you turn 30 and it’ll be perfect because you’ve had 10 years to figure yourself out first.
  11. Start doing yoga now
  12. Anxiety is not who you are. It’s just something you’re dealing with.
  13. Flex that Forgiveness muscle and keep it in shape as you get older. Remember… Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself…. It’s not for them.
  14. Be gentle with others. Don’t take their bad day personally. They’re not being “rude to you”, they are just not seeing beyond their struggles right now. We’ve all been there.
  15. Some things just aren’t about you. Acceptance is much easier to digest than bitterness.
  16. In 10 years… you’ll still struggle. Becoming an adult doesn’t magically make you “put together” being human is a lifelong endeavor
  17. Make an effort to be kind to others. But don’t be offended if they don’t reciprocate. Like my Dad always said…. you can’t help miserable people.  Let it go.
  18. Also as my dad used to say… he who angers you owns you. Never allow yourself to belong to anyone but you.
  19. Don’t hold yourself back because you’re afraid of what they’ll think. They don’t care. They’re not thinking of you… and if they are judging you…. than they clearly don’t have. Handle on who owns them…
  20. Your mental health is a thing and you should take care of it.
  21. You actually do use math… you’ll own a business one day… pay attention!
  22. Stop Procrastinating.
  23. Slow down and enjoy life. There is no reason to be in a rush.
  24. Start Learning discipline and structure young.
    Don’t change a damn thing! Everything you’ll do from this moment until you turn 30 lead you into the amazing life you have today!
    Make the mistakes. Take the wrong classes. Never stop learning. Never stop exploring. You are not a mess. You’re not a failure. You are just a crazy beautiful girl finding her way to being a crazy beautiful woman. Keep breathing. You matter.
  26. You’ll dream of changing the world one day…. start with yourself.

One extra for the road….

When in doubt….always choose love.

It’s Okay To Cry- Allowing Energy To Move…

Seriously… Crying is a natural part of life. It is totally okay to cry!!

One of my students came to me this week and said “You know… during Yoga Nidra… I just couldn’t stop crying and I tried not to but I couldn’t help it….” This is what I said to her and what I say to all of my students….

Crying, much like all other expressions and releases of energy, is so normal. It is just our bodies way of releasing that energy. Let it flow. Let it go.

Allow yourself to create space for the energy to move through the body. Find acceptance for the feelings you are feeling. Notice them as sensation rather than label them as ‘good’ or ‘bad’. Allow the sensastions you are experienceing to be acknowladged and accepted without judging them or becoming attached to them. Allow them to move through the body as pure sensation.

If you’ve seen my recent video on “Letting energy flow”(watch it below)…. you’ll remember this quote… “Trying to stop energy from flowing is like trying to stop the whole universe from spinning…. energy moves no matter what.” Energy will continue to move no matter how we handle it.

Naturally what happens when energy moves throughout the body is it circles through the body and then releases upward. We may experience this energy shift as tingles…tenson in the shoulders… tightness in the body… or even tears. It is important to just breathe into these sensations and allow them to flow through the body without trying to stop them or change them. When we stop energy from flowing (by means of tightening… tensing… clenching… resisting….) it gets trapped and it continues to circle within the body and becomes stuck. This is when trapped energy begins to manifest into physical symptoms such as headache, backache….chest tightness… all things we know as stress… let the energy flow through you as you experience it in the present moment. It really is all temporary.

So the next time you find yourself crying or feeling some intense emotions…. allow yourself to breathe into it… accept it… create space for it… and allow it to go. It’s okay to cry…. most importantly…. love yourself deeply through it.

“We must move through it if we want to get passed it…”

…Sending you all the love and light in the world…. xoxo

The Science Behind The Sound of OM

So you’re sitting in your first yoga class at the very end of class… totally blissed out… barely hearing what the yoga teacher is saying and all the sudden… it happens… the entire room begins to chant the sound of ‘OOOOOOOMMMM’.

Pronounced ‘AUM’, the sound of OM has been a traditional part of the Yoga Practice for… well.. as long as yoga has been around… centuries!

It’s not just a crazy hippie Yogi thing we do to signify our yogi weirdness… we promise. The sound of OM is actually scientifically proven to change our brainwaves!

The sound of OM is known as the universal sound that carries vibration- and this vibration resonates with the entire universe. This universal energy touches and connects every fiber of our being together.

Studies have shown that the vibrations associated with the sound of OM have an impact on our brainwaves and actually do change the frequencies of vibration within our bodies.

The sound of OM calms and relaxes the entire being, bringing the vibration within us to a higher frequency. Chanting the sound of OM will ground you and bring your energy into deeper connection with all the energy surrounding you- this means a much more chill and relaxed you! Try it….


Thirst. Crave. Sunshine and Earthy Roots.

A piece of my heart from 2014…

Random writIng of the day :

9th-May-2014 01:04 am – Thirst. Crave. Sunshine and Earthy Roots.

As I sIt here… Headphones In my ears… Jason Maraz serenadIng me In the background…

I glance over at an electric fireplace… Only the light.. Because It Is after all… Finally too hot for the heater…

A part of me knows the image comes from a continuous turning light which makes It looks like flames… but that doesn’t seem to take the magic away from me.

I know all Its secrets… I love It anyway.

I walked in the sunshine today… And like so many times before the sun soaked up all the residual cold… I even got a little glow…. I so much needed that sunshine. So much It hurt. I needed that sunshine so badly that I almost forgot what It felt like….

Life Is such a funny thing. The give and take… The crying and laughter. Icicles and sunshine….

Polar opposItes excIte me. I often wonder If I would notice the beauty In them alone… They are so beautifully complemented by their counterpart.

I’m not sure where I’m going with my writing tonight… All I know is I have the urge to write. That’s enough for me. So… I”ll write.

I am intrigued by the unknown. I feel love for the things which terrify me.

Yes… Hope is dangerous… But it is a much more beautiful way to travel than fear…

I keep hoping.. Wishing… Loving… Jumping Into the unknown. I used to curse this side of myself. I often Ignore all the odds. I jump anyway…. And almost always… I get burned.

Those things which I carried with me out of those flames, though… Seem to be of the most beautiful I’ve ever had.

It’s about this time the sun begins to shine and I begin to crave….

It’s about the time of the year when It gets warm… And I crave… It always makes me acutely aware of how little I have hydrated myself over the winter….

Around this time of year… I crave something new… A new adventure… A new place to run to.. A new bridge to burn…

However…much to my surprise… For the first time, In a very long time, I crave more of what I have… I crave for a different reason. Instead of craving to run to something new… I’ve put down roots. And I’m thirsty to keep those roots alive.

Now… For any of you out there who know me… Putting down roots has never been on my mind. I left my doors open…. I made sure I had space to run…

To find a place to connect myself to never really crossed my mind….

Somewhere though… Somehow… My heart got brave. My soul began to patch itself up and worked Its magic. Sneakily… Quietly… I grew roots. I found a place to love… I found a place to belong… I connected myself to something…

…That’s terrifying and exhilarating all at the same time for me… Now I know I can’t just pick up and run to something new when I get scared. I have something to be terrified of… To connect myself to… To breathe life into… To Crave…

After all these years of being scared of growing roots somewhere… I have. And I am In love with where I belong.

Now, I’m that obnoxious girl next door who blasts her music too loud and dances with her broom while she sweeps…

When In life do we become THAT person?

Somewhere along the way, life makes sense. We do the things that make our soul happy… We do life In a way which is our own… We make our own rules….

Live uninhibIted… Live free… Sing at the top of your lungs and dance while you’re walking down the road. There is nothing left in this life. That’s it. That’s all there is. Who do you want to be in this life? The person who is well put together and self-composed… Or the person who was so full of life and happiness and beautiful messiness that they couldn’t help but dance about it?

Move The Way Your Soul Intended… Be That Person…Be The Person You Truly Are… Deep Down In Your Soul.

Crave Love. Crave Happiness. Never stop craving to believe In the magic… Even when you know all Its secrets……

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To Every Yogi Who Has Known That Yoga Found You When You Needed It Most…

 In Honor of My Yoga Teacher and my Yogi Sisters and Soul Sisters walking this earth alongside me on our Yoga Journey

January 2013…
When I walked into that room… the night I attended my first yoga teacher training class…. having expectation… set opinions about who I was and “where I belonged”…. Soul Tattered… Broken Hearted… Anxiety-Ridden… Depressed… Having buried my father and at that time two brothers I loved very very dearly…. a grieving mother, now widowed…who had her own pieces to pick up while also picking up mine…I had no idea how I would make it… or if I even belonged… but something way down deep in the depths of my heart and soul held my feet to the earth… firmly planted… knowing I just needed to be there…

I often called myself an “emotional gypsy”. I ran from career interest… to career interest… to hobby…. to distraction… and back again… trying so desperately to find that spark that would set me alive again….
I believe most of me knew the universe was telling me to be in Yoga Teacher Training. I hoped with all my heart that it was where I was meant to be… but a small part of me thought, with a heavy heart, that it might just be another thing that I ran to…. and most likely would run from when it wasn’t holding my attention away from my pain anymore…

The joke was on me…because I didn’t realize the truth about yoga. I didn’t realize its true intention. I didn’t know that yoga wasn’t just not falling in Tree Pose and Warrior II. Yoga taught me how to feel… and Yoga taught me how to stay in the moment when the feeling became enough to make me run… Yoga saved my life. Yoga saved my soul.

As we moved through teacher training our Yoga Teacher taught us about acceptance… about love… she gave us a place where we were allowed to cry and feel what we were feeling without needing to explain it. She gave us a place where we were able to ‘simply be’ without explanation. It was liberating and a home for all of us that made us feel whole and able open up and speak our truth…
I learned so much about my sisters in yoga teacher training. I learned about their lives. What made them tick. Their struggles… I saw one thing that…actually beautifully…. made me realize we were all broken in some way. We were all in that studio space… cozy wooden floor… breathing together… moving together… huddled together… picking up each other’s pieces… becoming strong enough to pick up our own…. feeling and existing without need for explanation… it was then that I took a deep breath and felt a space where I’ve honestly never encountered again anywhere else… A place where I was able to be exactly me. Where I didn’t need to fit in any boxes.. where I wasn’t asked to make sense to anyone but myself… Where I got to just be a raw bundle of exploding emotions waiting to be felt and let go of…

It was then when it started to occur to me… and has resonated with me more and more as I move through my journey of Yoga…. Yoga attracts the broken, tattered souls who have realized they have a home within it. Those who have come for the true meaning of Yoga… those who yoga has found who are meant to belong in its space… have been experienced life in such a way that they need to explore and find the space to ‘simply be’ and be a soul within a body. A spirit. An experience not of the mind or of anxiety or of depression or of loss… but simply the core truth of who they are. They become so grateful that yoga has given them the space to be who they are that they begin to open and feel and breathe… and they begin to exist and be who they truly are.

We have all come to this practice of yoga with a story…. with a purpose.. and with a oneness. We are all here for the same reason. To ‘simply be’ who we are.

Walk into any studio… throw your mat down by any yogi… ask them about their story… ask them how they found yoga…. or perhaps… how yoga found them. I guarantee… they will have a beautiful story that will touch your soul and that may even connect to your own.