I feel like perhaps it’s an appropriate day (voting day) for this discussion…. although it happened purely out of coincidence that I would feel moved to share this today.
I think…. though we have come so very far…. maybe we have not completely busted the lid of mental health in our little corner of the world… so here I go…
Many of you know I have many credentials in the self-care and alternative health field… “Experienced Registered Yoga Teacher, 200 Hours”, “Reiki Master Teacher” “Fitness Walking Certified”… to name a few…
…however… none of the credentials or titles come with a key to the “promised land” of health and wellness… I know what I should do…. but I’m not perfect… I know meditation helps me control my anxiety… but I still worry when my loved ones get in their car in the morning… I know self-care and yoga helps me control my relationship with food… but it does not erase the fact that I have an eating disorder… I know cultivating peace, calming and healing in my personal life helps me to start my day and breathe a little more and choose love a little more… and choose reaction a little less… but it doesn’t mean my depression disappears….So many of us you see every day with bouncing energy and big smiles are fighting a battle to get up, dress up, let go and breathe every morning.
My life is amazing. I have a devoted, loving, caring husband… a big family that stands by my side every step of the way (on both mine and my husband’s side) and incredible friends and students that have had my back every step of the way.
I would be completely lying and untrue to my spirit and self if I tried to admit to you that I did not struggle through the transition of losing my yoga studio home, packing up all of the memories we made there, moving to a new space and doing all of the business work it takes to let my students know I’m in a new location.
I’d love to say I powered through… got in the cardio… didn’t eat the sugar and did it all perfectly… but that’s not what happened.
I cried… I leaned on my husband, family, and friends… I ate sugar… I ignored my yoga mat… I didn’t do the cardio. I was completely imperfect… and 100% human. I strive to one day make it through a life transition without falling off the health journey wagon… This time it didn’t happen.
I didn’t share this… I didn’t share anything for a while through this because I was ashamed that I let up. I was angry at myself… I felt weak… I felt like I was failing… I felt like I had done myself and those I’m sharing my story with a disservice…
Today it occurred to me as I made the journey to my counselor’s office (yes… I go to counseling regularly…even on the good days!…. mental health is important!) that I haven’t failed… I’ve done the exact opposite… I’m human. Failing means quitting. I’m far from quitting… I’ve fallen… I’ve rested and healed… but I’m here… showing up… accepting…. ready to move forward.
I’m sharing this story not only for me… but because we need to wake up and realize there are a whole bunch of us in this world trying to do our best, being told by society to “suck it up” not realizing that mental health is no joke!
Let’s start with self-love. Let’s start by showing up. Whispering to ourselves I’ve got this… I’m here… I showed up… I’m worth it.
Loves, it’s time to turn the scales… it’s time to reach out. Hold each other up… choose love. Be gentle. Be human. Ask for help. Accept. Be. Breathe.
Mental Health Is No Joke. We have not failed. We have simply come into awareness.
Next time you feel that “suck it up… get over it” voice in your head coming on… let’s try replacing it with “I’m choosing love… I’m human… I’m allowed to feel what I’m Feeling… I’m ready to get up and begin again”.
So here I am.
Breathe. Be. Begin Again.
We are all here together on this earth for a reason. Hold each other up. Be Human. Cheer for each other.
Know that next time you come across that awkward quiet girl that you wonder why she isn’t being social… remember that she may be fighting to accept. She may be working on just getting through the moment.
I Know. Because I’m Her.
Mental Health Is No Joke. Anxiety Strikes At A Moments Notice… and it doesn’t play favorites. We’re all human. No one is immune.
Choose Love. Do Yoga.